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"my heart is in trouble" tis words were printed in my heart when i was on the way back home last saturday.. sitting inside the car, looking out the window, looking infront, things that appear in my mind only my problems.. again "my heart is in trouble"
i rmb a scripture "do not let your heart be troubled…" so i immediately go back home, i didnt feel like going anywhere, i just wanna seek after Him.. i just wanna see Him..
after closing the room door, my tears immediately roll down, i search where is the scripture which i read tat morning.. "…do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid" John 14:27 i cried out everything in my heart to God, i told Him inside of me is so heavy, i have to do the things i feel hard to do, i shldn do the things that i wanna do,things that i’m doing seems no result and things go on.. i cried, the only way i can burst out..
"then?" i asked…
again, i read thru the whole chapter, "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me.." the key word, ‘TRUST’, tis word imparted in me, i felt comforted, He wans me to trust him, He wans me to trust Him.. just because He is God, wat more i can do?
quietly, resting in His arm, i’ll trust Him…

Second seems more precious than minute,

everyone enjoying their drinks,

not because how tasty it is,

is because how sweet the moment it is.

Throwing away all the burdens,

coming out in the late night,

sharing the food?

sharing every same second instead.

Looking at baba’s face,

happiness flowing out from his hidden smile,

looking at mami’s face,

relaxing with a thankful heart;

looking at gah jeh’s face,

many words still coming out from her mouth,

but knowing that she is satisfied with every second.

Hearing the voice from others chatting,

hearing the music playing by touching guitarist,

this night,

all the sounds are pleasing to the ear even silence comes in at a time.

Date: 7th Oct 2005

Time: 11pm-130am

Venue: Sri Hartamas

Weather: still can see the stars